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I seriously do not know who I hate more right now.  Me or Him .  I don't want to struggle anymore.  I never thought that it was possible for me to be so hung up on one guy.  I really thought that this time, I really had something going for me.  I want to move away to Canada, but I really want to look after my mum.  I don't know what to do anymore.  Crying just makes it more pointless and painful. 

I just don't get it. 

Seriously. 

Why me?